Permanent life shake-up

well yeah this week has nothing different from the other. everything seems like so mean to me, everyone act like an evil. this is not my home. I've already lived at this hell for only 2 months and now I am completely drown into a sadness. the deepest sadness. I have no power to control myself right now. it feels like I'm dying. God, what the hell are you doing to me? geez! this is sucks